freedom, confusion & unknowing
CS Lewis writes (in Surprised by Joy, p.22), “One the other hand, I was aware of no motives. You could argue that I was not a free agent, but I am more inclined to think that this came nearer to being a perfectly free act than most that I have ever done. Necessity may not be the opposite of freedom, and perhaps a man is most free when, instead of producing motives, he could only say, ‘I am what I do’”.
I am intrigued by the space between freedom and confusion. In delineating the psychological space in which, whilst still ‘doing’, a human no longer is the same. (I am no longer what I do, not because I have ceased to do it, but because I do not recognise the activity).
If I do not know or recognise my actions, how are they changed?
Thinking some more about this woman’s state, and wondering what it is that she ‘knows’ or that is now missing … some language/script:
I don’t know anything.
I don’t know anymore.
Bagryana ‘character’ (off camera): What do you know of that time? What did you do?
I don’t think I know anything anymore.
Oh, and on a bit of a tangent, the possibility of disinhibition in this ‘state’ is very plausible. At this opens up the scripting/language for rapid shifts/changes, whilst maintaining coherence through the woman’s incoherence/confusion.
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